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Adaje​/​Lizards Have Personalities Split

by Carucage

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The mountains pierce the sky in a casual manner. I squint for a glimpse of serenity, But it hides behind the steadfast clouds. They boast an image of divinity, But they have leaked their brilliance unto me. A warm breeze hits me from all directions And suddenly I don't miss home anymore. I can hear everyone calling out to me. Everyone who I've known, know, and forgotten. But please just let me stand here and let it all sink in. I promise I'll come back to you. It will a new pair of eyes to look into. For this world leaves us scarred for the most part. Sometimes the scars are what makes us shine. Serenity has ripped out my conscience. I am one with nothing.
There's a part of me that I am missing I keep searching just to end up at dead ends Return to the start; an attempt to mend a heart. But how can you find what you know doesn't exist? I know that I never will but I'm too human to care. There's a sickness inside of me that refuses my will. Everything that I love must someday disappear It's a void, a truth, that I cannot fill. I'm a human being. I cannot be defined. I can live my own life or I can fake it. I still carry the weight of those words with me.
Our hands never did fit perfectly. Geometry was never that kind to me. So if our touching skin was never a memory Why am I afraid to lose it? Years past between the words we speak. Our rhetoric; incoherent at best. I've always wanted to stop time. But not like this. Not like this. The realization I made that winter night Has become increasingly clear with age: Reality is a fleeting mistress and I have become her victim. Did the sun forget to rise or do I refuse to acknowledge it? There are spiders crawling through my veins at night Coaxing naive butterflies into infinite spanning webs. I have become obsessed with the beauty of this death.
What's with this sudden sense of urgency? Didn't you get your fix with how fast time has flown by as if you had wings yourself? I resent my coming of age as an act of cruelty. Romantics fizzle away as day by day comes to a close. Just hand me a wheelchair already So I can live my final days with a fake smile. Our lives are one way fates decided from the first time our mothers hold us. Always to be cradled by some sort of ambiguity. I would kill for a black and white life but instead I've come out black and blue and obliterated any truths that fall on my doorstep. Is this what I was put on this earth for?




released February 1, 2012




Carucage St Louis, Missouri

Independent record label based in St. Louis, MO and Memphis, TN

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